I wonder everyday if he hurts. If he feels bad for what he did, for what he didnt do and for what he never got to do. I think he should. He left so much undone and unsaid, he should hurt. I wonder if hes happy, at peace with us, and himself. He should be. It took him so long to get to that point, he should be happy. I wonder everyday why I hurt. Why feel guilty, responsible for what happened.