Sometimes you just have to hit rock bottom to improve yourself and your life. You think that once you hit bottom you'll be able to go back up-you'll be able to climb out og that rut.

I want to climb out of that rut. I feel like I'm having someone dump sand on me.

And with each shovel full of sand that falls on top of me-I loose more and more of myself. And I'm drowning in sorrows and choking on regrets,breathing in tiny grains of sand that feel like boulders on my chest;crushing me.