Its another beautiful day that i wont be taking advantage of.theres nothing to do here without a car, theres no fun, no light. i hate it. i hate being stuck within myself, i cant hang out when i want, i cant leave when i want. i hate this shit.

ruth called me today, telling me all these places i need to apply at. i havent really told anyone here that im leaving yet,well just have to see how it goes.