Thats my problem. Im going really well for a few days (this time it was more than a few days-it was actually a few weeks) and then BOOM something happens to make me fall back into my lull. This time it was a combanation of a couple of things. First, I got my period. That always makes me feel like sh*t.Ever since I had those damn cysts I get craps that are debilhitating. I just want to curl up in a fetal position and die. Well, not die but lay there and moan out loud for hours on end. Then, the weather has been hot so, having my period and driving to work (a resturaunt none-the-less) with out A/C kills me. It makes me gross and nasty. It's also been raining now since yesterday-so that just depresses me even more. Also, I was "invited" to play poker tonight-but I highly doubt the guy (new guy at work, Ryan) is going to call me and give me directions...so...one more thing people at work can talk about. Me. Why do they like to talk about me. Im not THAT interesting. Im just down, and depressed. I can NOT wait to be up North and see people who care about me! I need some New England loving right about now.
I thought everything down here was getting better. I was having more confidence in myself, I was doing things I'd never done before-or not done willingly. I don't know.I just need a good nights sleep, and a massage. :)
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hey i tried to leave you a message earlier but i was on a different computer and i couldn't remember my password.
i tried to tell you that i totally understand the whole up and down process and to remember that after every down comes an up and you will feel better again.
i am sending you lots of love and a snuggly bed to curl up in and a nice warm cup of tea!
i hope you feel better soon!
ps...i can't wait for you to come up here! i hope you know that i am not going to let you go back home willingly! i will probably try to bribe you into staying here!
talk soon,
love,
danielle
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