Loss

I ate lunch at Cracker Barrell with Ian yesterday. I ended up crying because Iam so fed up with all the bullshit going on at the house. Micheals back-yup, you know those two weeks already came and gone. Im just fed up with having to deal with someone whos such a slob. (mind you, Im not the cleanest, but at least I pick up after myself.)I also dont go out somewhere with out offering to pick them up something. Whatever-long story short, Ian didnt laugh at me for saying I need to center myself and go camping-he actually agreed. It was cool. Hes a really sweet guy, and Ill miss him when he leaves.

Im really not going out this week-I came straight home last night and Im just going out to lunch with Sam today, and then I MIGHT go to the pub after work tomorrow and visit Holly. But Im not sure yet. If I do, Ill drink coke adn waters :) Maybe order some food and just throw darts.We'll see.

Last night at work I was so out of it, and I was a horrible server, and I just didnt want to be there.It's been like that for a little bit now. I just need to refocus myself. and figure out what I want, and how to achive it. I need to start meditating.